Just as i was finishing up the previous entry, i started to wonder about the reasons why i don't feel like smoking nowadays.
I think part of the reasons is that cigarettes keeps me occupied, i don't have to think my thoughts when i'm smoking. I'll quiet down on whatever the voice is inside my head when i light up a smoke,
but then, as soon as i start smoking, i begin to think about something else. and that something else is usually equally frustrating/ annoying/ depressing...blah blah blah.
So it's like a vicious cycle, so in a way i love my cigarettes and i hate it at the same time.
I guess i got a little bit bored with this now, or maybe becuz i found another thing that does the same thing to me--TV
So i use TV to distract myself, but at the same time, i hate what's on TV.
My god, i just realize that every relationship i've been in, real and imaginative, are all dysfunctional like that. Except for the one i had with 舒淇, that one was perfect. Good lord i made myself sound like a psycho just now.
"妳抽的煙模糊了我視線 緩慢圍繞著我卻沒有愛"...right?
But anyhow, that was my belated epiphany.
泥人
- m/ kuei
- Looks cool but ultra emotional, together but really apart, small but could be deadly, ok intelligent but really is a complete moron, usually selfish but sometimes will look out for others. Very private, although it doesn't seem like it. Lost but hopeful. Very scared of losing my mind, but have the feeling it might be too late.
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i’m so glad to hear that u have everything u need. I am pretty sure u do too. Except the concerts. I did get u a present but won’t b able to get it until early next month which fucking pisses me off as usual, u know how much I hate tardiness. But I’m still getting u that. and that’s that. that’s the point I am trying to make in this message. That’s it. Yes, that’s it.
thank you for the encouragement, u know when I am feeling down and sad, I need a good ass-whup song like low low low low low low low low. I’m sure with that song, no one will suspect me to b gay anymore but a handful, only a handful of people will think i don’t know where my feet r and I sure can’t tell the different between right and left. People who party will ask me to go dance with them, and people who don’t listen to hip hop will move outta my way when I’m shaking my thang. Becus for the usage of a word like “shawty”, it just suddenly make u seem 100 times more dumb than normal.
Speaking of zach efron, the eyelash batting piece of arm candy he is, once quoted: I look just like everyone else in LA, I don’t know why they chose to cast me. Thanx zach, u really spoke our minds. Hope it’s not too obvious that everyone who walks him by have that look of “u look just like everyone else here with that heavy make up and sissy fake eye lashes, why did they pick u to dance and sing like there’s no tomorrow?” the point of this is that he’s probably aiko’s favorite person in the world right now.
I love to read movie critic reviews on movies like harry potter, narnia, and hairspray, but I love this one about HSM3, yes, that’s what we call high school musical 3.
Hope this will lightly blow away ur depressing thoughts as it did with mine.
http://media.www.thelantern.com/media/storage/paper333/news/2008/10/29/Arts/high-School.Musical.3.Plot.Secondary.To.Fluff-3511998.shtml
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